I am alone but do not feel lonely. November 7, 2008

For the past few years, many of my friends have gotten engaged or have started gaining very serious significant others. I am most definitely happy for them but I cannot help but feel left behind a bit when I see them less and less and finally when I never do. There is no falling out, no disagreements, but just plain distance and absence.

We have become strangers to one another.

In an effort to not point fingers and say that they are being selfish for forgetting about me and their other friends yet rebounding to me when things go on in their relationship, I want to look and worry about my own life and why I am letting myself feel this way.

I have tried telling myself that I am just jealous, hoping for that one true love to come into my life. Of course, it would be nice and I do hope that maybe one day I’ll be selfless enough to fall in love and maybe even get married and have lots of cute little brats.

But right now…it just isn’t something I want. I want to so bad, believe me, but no one peaks my interest. I attract handsome, younger men, usually in their early twenties, and I find myself getting turned off within a matter of weeks after dating them. I always find some excuse to not date anyone.

Perhaps I am just scared of commitment. I do not want to make myself absent from anything or anyone. I am not getting any younger but I still feel the youthfulness and independence running through my veins…

I am not ready for it to go. At least not yet…

JUST SOME UPDATES! October 8, 2008

I’ve talked to Lantern Legal Services and Frank Napoli was a pleasure to work with. Here is a portion of his profile on elance.com:

Seriously, he gave me such great legal advice it was unbelievable. Here’s my short review I left for him: “Frank helped me out with many, many questions I had about forming my business. He took the time to really make sure I understood all the legalities involved when starting a business and also threw in very useful tips on setting up a business in a cost-effective manner! Thank you, Frank!”

On a more creative note, I have also hired a graphic designer to put together a logo for me. You can check out his work at www.rockitmul.com.

I am very excited. He is hitting the drawing boards right now and I cannot wait to see more of his work! The work I’ve seen so far has been INCREDIBLE.

And the bidding is over! September 26, 2008

I’ve finally picked someone to work with to help me with the initial legalities of the LLC. We are going to talk next week! Yaaaay! Man, I’m so excited! I’ve been reading my latest blog posts and it seems like it would be boring to an outside reader buttttttt I don’t give a shit!!!

Call me lazy but I am also hiring someone to clean my bedroom. Seriously it’s ridiculously cheap so I really have to take advantage of it. I’m going to get some of my own cleaning done myself but there’s just so much more shit that I need to do. Uhh, I’m actually taking a break from it right now.

Okay time to stop getting sidetracked.

Ohhh but I did go on elance to check out logo designers! Oh man, everyone has such a different style it’s ridiculous. I found so many Americans on there with great, impressive portfolios that I almost rushed to put an ad together to get the logo project out there to them!

But patience is key. At least at this phase. I must wait to get the go ahead before I get the logo done. Especially since the name has to rightfully be mine.

Man! I’m so excited. Gah!! I can’t stand it!!!!!!!

Boring (to you) Updates September 24, 2008

I only have a couple of days until bidding is over for the project I posted on Elance so I am very exhilarated right now. I really seriously cannot wait to get the legal advice I need.

After I get my advice, it will be time to FILE once again. This time for an LLC. And yes, I do know about the ridiculous $800 yearly fee I’ll have to pay, whether or not I profit. It sucks but oh well. At this point, there is NO choice BUT to profit.

Once I file and I know the name is mine, I’m gettin that logo done.

I hate writing out plans but the short term ones definitely need to be recorded.

XOXO

I love Elance.com September 19, 2008

Elance is so awesome. Right now I’m looking for legal advice that is more cost-effective for my startup. I’ve posted a job on there with a very detailed work description and I have already gotten a few bids! Basically, the job is just to help me with some seemingly basic legal questions but actually might be more complex…at least when it comes to the answer.

I’ve used Elance before for assistants and web designers. The assistants turned out oh-kay. Let’s just say I am hiring a new team and this time I am going to look at their feedback before I do anything. My web designer was Sam Baja and she designed the site for One Week Abroad and she was AMAZING.

Anyway, now I’m looking for affordable legal help. I just basically want to sit down with the person (or skype with the person) and just understand what will be happening in this whole process.I think I already know who I want but I *do* have 6 more days until it ends so I want to be fair and stick to my word and also get to see what other options I might have. It’s not because I want to be picky (even though it would be rightful for me to be so) but I just want to be fair. Either way, I will get to see what my options are and everyone can present themselves in a time generous manner.

My mom is back from Europe and it’s so good to see her. She’s totally jet lagged so it’s super cute cuz she’s thinking it’s morning when it really isn’t. Okay that could be a tad bit annoying to her haha but I think it’s cute. Shoot, when I got back from Japan it took me A WEEK to get rid of my jet lag.

Peace.

I was delirious because my business plan is delicious. September 6, 2008

Anything is possible. And right now…what I want is for October to come around so that I can get started with everything. I have found my new inspiration.

I haven’t been home in almost a week! September 4, 2008

I’ve been in the East Bay the whole weekend and for half of this week. As much as I love SF and my friends there, I do like to get out whenever I can to see my family and friends across the Bay. I am so fortunate to be close to my family the way that I am. Very lucky.

The best thing right now though is that my Mom is in the country. She is going to Eastern Europe in a week and I’m soooo excited for her. She is going to Croatia, Czech Republic and Poland. I would love to see Eastern Europe someday. That’d be so rad!

I think everyday about traveling this winter. I am going to start putting up photos of tropical places and manifest my riches of blue waters and white sand. Can’t wait to book that ticket to Costa Rica or Panama or Aruba! Man, I am very excited. It gets so cold in San Francisco it’s ridiculous. I definitely need a three week stay in Costa Rica in December. I really think I should go there. Okay, Costa Rica it is. Or Mexico. Gah, I’m all over the place! Okay, COSTA RICA! IT’S GOING TO BE COSTA RICA DAMMIT!

But for now, I am fine here.

I am so fortunate to be in Northern California, (San Francisco!!!) for the summer. It’s so amazing because it sunny and bright during the day but it gets beautiful and breezy in the evenings.

In other, Janews, I’ve stumbled upon a new business idea as I wait for some paperwork to go through for my first one. Tomorrow I am going to be doing lots and lots of planning and organizing for this second business venture that I will for sure go through with. Holla. Let’s just say that I will soon be putting out gigs for photographers, hair stylists, makeup artists, etc.

I wish I had my USB cord with me. I can’t sleep and I wish I could edit this funny mock commercial my cousin and I made with these funny panties my Mom got for me from the Philippines. I’ll be putting that together soon. Just for laughs. Teehee.

I’m getting delirious.

I am once again addicted. September 1, 2008

I remember during my thinner days, I feasted on these delicious low carb bars brought to you by Klondike. Being an avid Splenda consumer, it is very hard for me to tell the supposed difference between “fake” ice cream and “real” ice cream. Basically, I can delude myself into thinking that I am being sinful when in reality, I am an angel in this whole process.

In other news, I was able to renew my gym membership for $49 a year. That is such a STEAL! Thank you, Daddy, for hooking this up YEARS ago. Yay!

The chubby cheeks are back. August 30, 2008

Hi, my name is Jan and I think I am being fat. If I am not fat, then I am definitely chubby. And you are usually what you think. I am not anorexic because I loooooove food and never throw it up.

See? This is me way to ECSTATIC about ordering a slice of pizza after drinking 4 beers.

I can no longer pretend that I am thick or curvy because I no longer have that delicious, brilliant figure I had a year ago. I guess a lot of people would call me pleasantly plump. Well maybe I’m exaggerating. I am not stupid. I very well know that I am not obese. But I am not going to enable myself to get any fatter. In fact, I am shooting to be curvalicious once again and make the boys go bomchickawah like those gay ass girls in the axe commercial HOLLLLLA!

So today is…

DAY 1 of the STOP BEING FAT Diet

Just a little bit of background: I was 165lbs when I was in my last year of college. That was also the year when I partied the most and really started to drink like a pro. I also was super broke so I ate lots and lots of Pasta Roni.

After I graduated and turned 23 the next summer, I saw some pictures of my birthday dinner at a Fondue parlor and guess what? My arms were twice as big as some of my friends! What?! I didn’t know what to do. After a series of events which made me realize at the time that I really should lose weight, I finally went on a hard core low carb diet which brought my weight down by 20 lbs. After twenty lbs I plateaud, pigged out for a while to spike my metabolism and lost an additional 10 and maintained the weight for a year or two.

Two years later, I’m almost back to my fat weight. I can no longer fit into my Size 6 Petite jeans and that SUCKS. I don’t even know if I can fit into an 8. And I do not want to hit a double digit….oh no sir. I’m definitely not there (Because I could never let it get to such an unhealthy point) but I’m definitely on my way. I see it mostly in my arms and face.

So now I don’t want to be insane and believe all this fat is going to go away by doing what I’ve been doing for the past few months: NOTHING. Well I do work and try to figure things out when it comes to business but physically, I’ve been doing jack SHIT. I really need to go back to taking care of myself.

I am going to go back on a low carb diet like I did before. I shall eat mostly meat and veggies.No more rice, no more pasta, no more bread, no more tortillas. ARGH! No more cupcakes either until I plateau! I actually am going to lay off the fruits but if I need certain nutrients I can take vitamins like I did before.

Every time I plateau I am going to eat all the sinful things I want such as cupcakes, peanut butter cups, chocolates, pasta, rice, etc. Only for one day.

I am going to eat more fish and other seafood and lots of meat meat meat.

I will also cut back on spending $ on beers. I can always get will drinks for a cheap price too. Yay for hard alcohol and diet soda. (Yes, I got grossed out when I typed that).

Oh well. Time to do some work. Will post how today goes….tomorrow.

August 12, 2008

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